Always and Forever

It's been years since we last saw each other. It's been years since I last heard from you. But even in the long time of your absence my heart didn't stop beating for you.

I couldn't explain how much you mean to me. You were everything I ever wanted and more. You were my bestfriend, my brother, my boyfriend all in one. You understood me like no one ever had. You accepted me for who I am with all my quirks and weirdness. I fell in love with you deeper. I could talk to you for hours about everything and anything. I swear you are the only person in the whole world who knows how to make me smile even if I'm cussing with anger. Just being with you is so easy and effortless. It's always fun when we're together. Though I know not everything in our relationship were flowers and chocolates. We went through a lot of scrutiny by the people around us. They don't get it why I chose you. Because they don't see you the way I do. If only they could borrow my eyes then they would see the goodness in you. You know I fought for you. I fought really hard to save what we had. But I guess the world is too powerful for us. Our love isn't enough to make us survive.

You're long gone but still I can't forget you. I dated other guys but none of them can compare to what you made me feel. The feeling of security and contentment. The kind of feeling that no matter what happens we'll always have each other. I don't have with them the kind of connection we had. Where I just look at you without saying anything and you'd automatically know what I want. I'm not sure if I could find another guy who could make me forget you.

So I'm writing this to pour out what I've been hiding inside my heart - my love for you. Though you left me and it hurts too much to describe, I didn't stop loving you. I'm pretty much positive that we could never be together again. But maybe next lifetime we'll see each other again. And maybe, just maybe we will have a happy ending.

Here By Me

by: 3 Doors Down

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me

‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you

The things I thought you’d never know about me

Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?

Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,

And living without you…

Everything I have in this world

And all that I’ll ever be

It could all fall down around me.

Just as long as I have you,

Right here by me.

I can’t take another day without you

‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own

I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you

And to be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say

But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away

Inside of your love…

Everything I have in this world

And all that I’ll ever be

It could all fall down around me.

Just as long as I have you,

Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see

That time is standing still for me

When you’re not here

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say

Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away

Inside of your love...

Everything I have in this world

And all that I’ll ever be

It could all fall down around me.

Just as long as I have you,

Right here by me.

Everything I have in this world

And all that I’ll ever be

It could all fall down around me.

Just as long as I have you,

Right here by me.

My Favorite Novel

My favorite novel of all time is The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks. I have read it at least five times already and everytime I do it never fails to make me cry. The story is about finding your one great love, letting go, hoping of meeting that person again, and when destiny gives you a second chance you have to learn how to fight for your happiness. It's tragic but triumphant as well. It made me believe in true love and everlasting love. It's a beautiful novel. A definite must-read for the hopeless romantic.

Here is in my opinion the most tear-jerker part of the book. This is a note given by Noah (the male lead character) to Allie (the female lead character) when they have to separate.


The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and always will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. This means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.

When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have ever lived. And I know I have spent another life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say goodbye.

I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly goodbye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will only not love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before.

deep

this is the most personal poem i have ever made. this really tells what was in my heart when i wrote it. here goes:

MY IMMORTAL

I've been hiding for so long

Avoiding the pain I feel

Slowly inching away from the world

Losing the grip of reality

I've had this for a long time

Until I've become numb

Can't feel the prick of hurt

Can't feel the pierce of rejection

Everyday I wake up lonely

Wearing my mask of deception

Outside I seem okay

But deep inside I'm fading away

Always behind my walls of security

I never go too far from it

Afraid that somebody would see

The girl beneath the face

Would somebody please help me

I would do anything to just feel better

Tell me what to do

Anything to take this pain away

I can't see through the haze around me

Please help me find light

The light of hope

And the chance of a new life

Take me back to the real world

Destroy my walls of fear

Pull away my mask of pretention

Heal my heart cut so deep

GIve me back my innocence

Soften my heart of stone

Hear my voice long gone

Show me love I'm abandoned from

Until then I'm still me

The girl struglling to be free

Free from this misery

Please help me

Go Team Jacob!!!

The Twilight Fever got everyone hooked right now. Even I myself is infected.

You see, I watched the movie first before I read the books and I thought the movie was okay because it had a different plot. The human-vampire love story is unique. But when I read the books I couldn't put it down. It was so addictive. The movie didn't do it justice. But the thing is, I was drawn to Jacob Black not Edward Cullen. I know everybody is crazy about Edward the vampire but his charm just didn't get to me. Jacob Black didn't have a huge role and he wasn't one of the lead characters in Twilight but I was curious about him. And when I read the second book of the saga which is New Moon I immediately fell in love with him. He is totally adorable. Though Edward has the sweet words and the swoon-worthy good looks but Jacob has the raw sexiness. He kinda has a temper and he cussed but that's what makes him hot. Not to mention he has beautiful russet skin and black satin hair which is a huge plus to his to-die-for toned body.

Anyway, to conclude my rambling I just wanted to tell everyone that Jacob Black is the best fictional character ever. Screw Edward and his fangs. Haha!

Here's a proof why werewolves are waaaaay hotter than vampires.

See what I mean. How could you not fall in love with that. (sigh!)